I open my blue and white journal to a random page and this is what I find:
329. Sunshine in our schoolroom - so pretty after many cloudy mornings!
330. New kitten!
331. We finished a hard chapter in biology
332. Both boys got A’s on their test
333. New granite countertops & sink installed
334. In spite of how many (billions?) people live in this world, God knows each one, and thinks of them all the time. I am on his list!
335. Danny had a great guitar recital last night
336. The 20+ promises in Psalm 91
This is my gift list, but not the kind I wrote as a kid when Grandma asked us what we wanted for Christmas. Inspired by Ann Voskamp, I’m slowly working my way towards recording one thousand gifts given by God to me.
Some of my gifts are small - “our backyard hummingbirds; the bright Quechua rug in our living room; coffee.” Happily, I recently added - “I found flavored coffee on our trip to Mexico,” and then, “had enough room in our carry-ons to bring back 2 pounds of it!”
Some of my gifts are big ones - “we own a lovely house in the Andes, large enough to share with guests.”
I used to feel a bit guilty about the big blessings, especially living overseas, but reading through Psalm 103 with fresh eyes gave me a new perspective on the benefits that we have as children of God. It's easy to thank him for the “spiritual” gifts: forgiveness, healing, redeeming our lives from the pit, the crown of love and compassion that he places on our heads. But King David also reminds us that God “satisfies your desires with good things.” He chooses each gift just for us, and wants us to enjoy them!
I no longer feel guilty about the “big gifts” on my list, and I continue to give thanks to God for the small ones. (Bring on the coffee!) As I contemplate all of this, I glance down at the last entry on that random page in my journal:
337. He satisfies my desires with SO MANY good things!
Have you ever, like me, felt a little bit guilty for the gifts that God brings to you, especially when those gifts seem to set you apart from the people around you? What have you done to change your mindset so you can fully appreciate and enjoy those gifts?
I remember watching our kids tear into their Christmas presents when they were little, and I don’t know who felt more joy - the boys when they opened a new toy, or we parents as we watched their great excitement. One day I realized that God also waits expectantly for our reactions of joy and excitement when he gives gifts to us. He wants us to enjoy all of the good things he brings into our lives, and I know that he is pleased when we find ways to share those good things with the people around us.