Whenever I hear of global workers enjoying success in ministry—growing churches, numerous converts, flourishing discipleship, alleviation of great suffering, and so on—I rejoice over their accomplishments and the advancement of the Gospel. But another voice rises in my mind and takes away my good feelings. No, it’s not jealousy, but condemnation. 

Why in the world would I feel condemned? I think it all goes back to a stereotype I have (and can’t shake) of what an ideal global worker should be—a trailblazer like the Apostle Paul. And frankly, most biographies of famous global workers from the past fit that description. 

Which isn’t me. I’ve always been shy and an introvert. I can’t count the times I’ve argued with the Lord over why He made me this way, especially given that He called me into ministry. But I’ve come to a grudging acceptance of who I am, acknowledging that God knows best, so who am I to question Him?  

I don’t usually think about such matters as I go through my day, but occasionally, I may hear a report that triggers thoughts of condemnation as I compare myself to those I heard about. I realize such judgment doesn’t come from God, and one of the passages that helps me fight and defeat the accusations is 1 Peter 4:10-11.

Firstly, Peter points out that we all have received different gifts. My mistake is that I compare my gifts to those of others, which, of course, is a silly thing to do. This verse reminds me where my focus should be—to faithfully use the gifts God has given me to serve others.  

Secondly, Peter divides the gifts into two categories—gifts of speaking (and I would add writing) and gifts of service. But regardless of how God has gifted us, what’s important is to operate in the Lord’s strength and power of the Holy Spirit, with the result that God is praised. 

This passage also encourages me never to give up even if I don’t see the desired results. If I’m faithful to use my gifts to serve others, God will be glorified.