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What If God Doesn't Heal Me?

by HEIDI J. SMITH HEALING Grief, loss, & depression Hearing God & Understanding His Will Health issues on the field
What If God Doesn't Heal Me?
“My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me.”
2 Corinthians 12:9

Four years ago, I started having double vision right after my mom died. The doctors told me that after my grieving past my vision would return to normal. 

However the opposite happened, my eyes continued to deteriorate. 

I sought treatment from chiropractors and counselors. An optometrist ordered special contacts and prism glasses for me, and a neurologist scheduled an MRI. My family, friends and I fasted and prayed.

I struggled. God, why this? Haven’t I had enough? Haven’t I served you faithfully? Why aren’t you healing me? 

When have you begged God to heal you or a loved one?  

The apostle Paul pleaded with God three times to remove his thorn in the flesh. 

If anyone should have had rights to God’s healing, it should have been Paul. A zealous global worker and recorder of God’s Word. 

But God said no, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” 2 Corinthians 12:9

God could have healed him, but He allowed Paul to suffer keeping him humble and dependent on Him and drawing him closer to His glory. 

Kathryn Butler said it best, “Although God can heal us, we must never presume that he must.” 

We make contracts with God. “Lord, I have done this and this for you. Now please answer this request.” When God doesn’t answer the way we like, we wonder why He doesn’t love us. But He does. He sees the big picture and knows what is best. 

Our job is to earnestly pray (James 5) and then accept the outcome. Our acceptance places our trust in God and ushers in peace. It disarms Satan’s power and releases God’s power. 

This isn’t easy because it removes the contract mentality and says, “Lord, not my will but yours.” 

As you or your loved ones face disabilities or diseases, remember God is the great healer. Seek Him. 

God may not heal you like Paul, or He may heal you like me. My eyes are healing after eye surgery last month. 

Whatever the outcome, accept His will, know you are loved, and lean into his grace. It is all for His glory. 

Closing Prayer
Dear Lord, Thank you that you are the great Healer. Thank you that you can speak life, touch blind eyes, or heal through your hem. Thank you that nothing is impossible for you. Lord, where we struggle is when you say no or make us wait. We know that you know that you love us and know best, but sometimes we don’t feel like it because we don’t see the big picture. Help us to accept Your will and trust your plan. Help us to be diligent in praying and believing in faith. If the answer is no, help us to realize that your grace is sufficient. In Jesus’ name. Amen.
Article: When Will God Heal My Body by John Piper This article is helpful because it talks about why God might not heal our bodies until heaven.
Article: If God Doesn’t Heal You by Kathryn Butler This article is helpful because it talks about enduring through suffering.
Song: Healer by Kari Jobe This song is encouraging because it reminds us that God is the healer.
Question for Reflection

When have you or a loved one begged God for healing?

Heidi J. Smith
May 13, 2024

When my mom was diagnosed with Lou Gehrig’s Disease, we begged God to heal her. She tried lots of medical treatments, but God took her home after one year of fighting. He healed her by giving her a new body in heaven.
I wish God’s answer was different because I miss my mom. But God’s grace is sufficient and I’m learning to lean into Him.
In my life, I struggled with my eyes the last four years. I was terrified of eye surgery, but God used the surgeon’s hands to align my eyes and correct my double vision. My eyes are still sore, but they are healing.
God’s ways are higher than our own. Our job is to accept his will, trust him, and lean into his grace. It is all for his glory.