We were leaving the field for a new type of ministry in the States. My husband was looking for a job and all the arrows pointed toward one, except for one thing — it came with a long commute from where we needed to live. A long commute that would limit his time with and availability to our family. 

I met with a prayer partner and shared how the job fit several aspects I had prayed for. As I processed the pros and cons of this job and considered another potential job offer, my friend said, “Maybe God wants you to trust Him with this job.” 

Trust Him? Wasn’t that what I was doing — moving our family to a new location where He was calling us? Believing He was going to provide all that was needed? 

Then I realized that in this one decision I really wanted to understand how it would all work out. I really wanted to see it clearly.

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding.” Proverbs 3:5 

I know there is nothing wrong with looking at all aspects of a decision and using wisdom and experience to help me consider the factors. Yet there was a point at which my understanding of the situation could not predict the future or see the needs of the other people who would be impacted or know what God wanted to do in our lives. 

“Many plans are in a person’s mind, but the Lord’s purpose will succeed.” Proverbs 19:21 (CEV) 

The funny thing was I experienced this when we moved to the field. The Lord had mercifully invited me to live not by what my eyes could see but by faith in what He could do. And mercifully He was inviting me to keep living that way. It’s a good reminder to hear again as we start a new season. 

At the time of writing this, we still have yet to see how this job will work out. But I keep reminding myself that it’s not my responsibility to make it all work out. I am held by the One who holds all things together.