“Ugh, I can hear you!” I said with frustration underneath my breath, but still loud enough for my mom to hear.
A young pre-teen at the time, I don’t recall what my mom was trying to communicate. I had a knack for daydreaming and tuning people out. This was one of those moments.
“I know you hear me, Jillian,” my mom quickly replied. “But are you listening?”
“Same thing,” I snapped, rolling my eyes.
“Not quite,” she answered back. “Hearing means you can hear the sounds coming out of my mouth. Listening means you are using your brain to pay attention to what those sounds mean.”
I sat in silence pondering that for a while. The last thing I wanted was for her to be right, but deep down I knew she was.
All throughout my life, my mom’s words have stuck with me. They are a constant reminder to stay focused. Pay attention. Listen and not only hear. Especially when it comes to the words of God. Jesus said we are blessed when we hear and obey God’s words (Luke 11:28). But this obeying first requires us to listen.
Living in Haiti taught me how to listen. Or rather, it leant me an environment where listening was much simpler. When the electricity turned off at night, I could listen. When the rain came and life stopped outside, I could listen. When the Voodoo drums beat loud in the distance, surprisingly, I could listen.
Now that I’m living back in America, however, listening feels so much more difficult. This place is full of noise. Here, the electricity never turns off. Here, the rain rarely cancels plans. Here, there are no Voodoo drums… just a TV and a smartphone. And if listening proceeds obedience (which it does), I need to find a way to get quiet. I need to learn to stop and listen so that I may obey.
In order for us to obey, we first must listen. And listening requires we take time to be quiet. In the midst of your busy days, how do you do this?
I am a mom of four with a full-time job. Finding a moment to listen to anything other than a child calling out my name feels impossible most days. I used to feel as though my lack of time alone excused me from needing quiet time with God. Like, God gave me all these kids anyway, so He understands this is just my season. But, eventually, He made me realize this was an excuse. I learned that quiet time with God to listen and obey doesn’t have to be pretty. It doesn’t have to be Instagram worthy with a pretty coffee cup. For me, right now, quiet time with God is when I’m putting my youngest down for his nap, in the car after dropping my kids off at school, in the evenings when I’m cooking dinner, in the shower, or after I tuck my last one in bed at night. Right now, I’m learning to find quiet snippets in my day and intentionally devoting them, no matter how small, to listening.