In your overseas context, have you felt the tension between fitting in and/or standing firm? 

When our family lived in central western China, I desired to fit in with Chinese Muslim culture while also standing firm in my personal faith convictions. I really wanted to find the “and,” so as not to have to choose between one end of the assimilation spectrum or the other. 

But how to find the kind of balance that would honor God and feel true to my heart? How could I grow in discerning His direction for me? 

It was a challenge to hear and follow the Shepherd’s voice, especially when my own family members stood on different convictions in identifying with our host’s culture. 

I decided to join a Saturday morning women’s class at the mosque across the street from our apartment building. There, I learned Arabic and some basics about Islam, which included reciting the Shahada. One day, the teacher drew attention to the fact that I was not reciting with everyone else, and I realized with dread that the issue of my silent observation needed to be addressed. 

I sought counsel about how to handle this tricky situation, and a wise friend suggested that the issue didn’t need to be whether or not I believed that Muhammad was the Prophet but a matter of my not seeking conversion. This was a respectful approach I hadn’t considered, and it really resonated with my spirit. 

With peace, I approached my Arabic teacher to explain my dilemma, “I’m interested in learning more about Islam, but I’m not interested in becoming a Muslim. Is it ok for me to keep coming to the class and just observe sometimes?” 

She responded in an incredibly gracious way, “Of course. You are welcome to participate in whatever you feel comfortable with. Just listen to your heart.” 

Just listen to your heart. 

It doesn’t have to be more complicated than that. 

My heart is where Jesus lives. And when my heart beats with His, He fills me with peace and consolation as I make decisions. My teacher’s words to listen to my heart further blessed me with God’s affirmation. 

“The sheep recognize his voice and come to him. He calls his own sheep by name and leads them out,” John 10:3 (NLT).