“Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see.” Hebrews 11:1 

Really? My eyes were wet as I quickly went home. I could almost feel the blood drip from my heart as I tried to make sense of what she had just said. Her accusations and assumptions were all wrong. I knew she had misunderstood a recent communication, but that fiery dart had embedded itself. The flame wasn’t out yet. 

I felt like she hated me. I felt like our ministry together could never go on. I felt like an imposter as a global worker. I felt like life on the field shouldn’t be this emotionally hard – I mean physically I got it, but in my soul? 

I felt so hopeless until I finally realized something else: all of these accusations that bombarded my mind were just like an enemy trying to wear down his opponent. Hey Paula, God seemed to say. This is war.

As I sat before Him, He reminded me of His Truth... 

I will overcome all of this (John 16:33). I told you that you would suffer (2 Timothy 3:1). I work within you in the midst of this pain to produce endurance, character, and hope (Romans 5:3-4). I am with you (Romans 8:35). Because of My comfort during this time, you will be able to point others to Me when they are in pain. (2 Corinthians 1:3-4). This is part of My testing, don’t let this surprise you (1 Peter 4:12). Look to Me as your example (1 Peter 2:21). It’s not unusual to be perplexed and hard pressed (2 Corinthians 4:8-10). 

With each promise I raised my faith-shield higher. I stood before Him rejoicing. He had reminded me once again, that He was the One Who had already won this war.